Finding Mercy In The Midst Of Trials And Test

     So far everything that happens, if I take a thousand step back, I will be able to see that it's all a grand scheme for a better life by Allah specifically crafted for me, in fact for Aina too. 

    I know for a fact there's many more for me to learn but rather than whining and complaining about what happens to me, I learn to take a step back and ask myself, "What is Allah trying to teach me here in this situation?". Many times there will be answer and you don't even have to find it that far. It's right there, you only need to change your perspective.

    I'm quite shocked on how a simple a change of perspective from "why me? / why always me? / why now? / what's next? / etc, can make myself to be more grateful. Now I take everything as a life lesson or blessing, tire flat while I park?, rather than OMG money out, its just the middle of the month, I now will say it's ok, better while at park, imagine what will happen if I'm speeding and the tire burst?. A blessing in disguise and when the test becomes a gift

    This change of perspective is on the other hand, direct result of accepting Redha, where I learn to always Husnuzon, to give benefit of a doubt to Allah's planning even on days where I can't see the reason or the lesson Allah trying to teach me. With this, even the bad experience can be taken better and ultimately we will be gentler to our ownself rather than beating ourself up for anything that have happened. 

    When I stopped asking ‘Why me?’ and started asking ‘What now?’. Life becomes easier. It's all matter of perspective. Allah loves you no matter what. 

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